I love sitting down and talking with my heavenly Daddy. He is my support – my rock – my fortress. But what I really love is snuggling up to his chest – his heart – and hearing it beat – hearing it call out to me . . . “Lori . . . I love you . . . Lori . . . I love you . . . Lori . . . I love you . . . ” it beats on and on and on – never ending.
I love that!
I can step away and know that it’s still beating that same rhythm – that same song – that same phrase – “Lori . . . I love you . . .”
Did you know that God is saying the same thing to you?
When you get close to His heart – you won’t hear “Lori . . . I love you . . . ” but you will hear “Tina, Bob, Susan, Joe, Everyone . . . I love you”. Whatever your name is – God knows it! He knows it and He loves you! His heart is beating your name – over and over and over again . . . . and it will never stop. “Lori – I love you . . . Lori – I love you . . . .Lori . . .”
Today I got close to my Daddy’s heart – and I asked him what was on His heart today.
I love knowing! And you know what?
He loves sharing with me what’s on His heart! He loves sharing with YOU what’s on His heart.
Many people just don’t take the time to listen. They share what’s on theirs – on and on with their wish-list of provisions needed, healings desired, etc – but they end it without taking the time to ask God “What’s on your heart today?”.
I dare you to ask Him!
You will be surprised at what He wants to share with you – what He LONGS to share with you!
I am not “special” in my ability to hear God. All of God’s kids can hear Him. The Bible proves that point - John 10:27 says “My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me”. If you are a Christian, following God and allowing Him to be Lord of your life – then you ARE His “sheep” – and you DO hear His voice. You just need to take the time to listen to what He is saying.
Anyways . . . I wanted to share with you what I saw and heard today. Man – God sure does love you guys!! It never ceases to amaze me!
As I snuggled up close to God today and put my hands on His heart – I saw something on it – like a blanket, shroud or cape. It was attached at the top – almost more like a cape. I could push back the sides and touch his heart and see more of it – but I asked him about the covering? Why was it there?
It was covering a wound – a large, ugly tear/gash that was oozing some fresh blood – not much but some. I asked God “how can it be healed? What’s it from?”
God – It is healing. It is healed. But it is leaking, weeping, and I can’t let it seep out on others yet. It is a good wound . . . it’s not bad. It is good. It is an open fissure – into my heart – from my heart. There will come a time when this shroud – this blanket or cape that you see – will be removed. You are able to push back the front of it – and you see my whole heart – you see the whole front of my heart – and it looks whole – huge – bright red – lovely – inviting. The back side is different. You can see it Lori. You can reach around and touch the wound – touch the fissure. It’s not a pretty sight. It looks ugly, torn, leaking and not something people would want to come close to. But it is still part of my heart – part of my love. People are scared of it – they would be if they saw it – but it’s not bad. It’s good. It really is. It IS beautiful – because of what it does – because of what it represents.
L – What does it do? What does it represent? I can reach back and feel the warmth of the blood trickling out ever so slow. There isn’t a big puddle of blood or anything – in fact – the blanket/shroud kind of soaks up the little bit that is oozing out. But you can’t tell that from the front. You wouldn’t even know. I think people see this shroud more like a cape or a royal robe. It is a royal robe – attached up high – around your heart – so it doesn’t come off – but it is moveable – at times to cover your heart and other times to pull it back and reveal what’s underneath. You do this as you please – and you allow others to take a peek and pull back the robe as they please. All they have to do is come close. Come close and push it back. See more of your heart. So many people cry out for more of your love – more of your heart – but they don’t come close. They are expecting you to just shove your heart in their face – to pull back your robe and show it – declare it. Sometimes you do – but what you really desire – is for them to come close – like a little girl would to her daddy – to pull back his coat to see what good surprise he has hidden in his jacket – fully comfortable hugging on, hanging on and touching her daddy in a loving way. This is what you desire. To be loved like this – as children with their Father. But I also know that you have another side – a desire for your Bride to come – to touch your heart in another way.
I see your Bride coming up to you – to touch your heart – but she is not just interested in the front – in the “surprise” in what’s in it for her – but she is interested in You – in what’s hiding – in what’s on the other side of your heart. She is interested in putting her hands all the way around your heart and grasping hold – deeply from behind. She is not put off by the blood oozing from the wound. Her desire is to be close – as close as she can be – and to be in the midst of all of your heart – no matter what other people think – no matter what others think your heart looks or feels like. She knows the truth – she knows the joy – she knows the love. She reaches around and feels the back – feels the wound - and she cries – not out of sadness – but out of love – out of the realization that this wound was taken, was caused by love – by your love for her – your willingness to protect her – to fight for her – to champion for her – to do anything for her. You have taken this wound – for her – and yet you have hidden it from her. Why?
G – I have hidden it – but not permanently. It’s always been there. Anyone who would dare to come closer – who was willing to come as close as you are Lori, can reach around and feel it – they will find it. I am not hiding it on purpose to keep it from them – but to allow them to discover it. It’s only for those that are willing to come closer – to reach around –to dig deep – to be encompassed by my love and to encompass my love. It is for the ones closest to me. That is why it is hidden. It’s not for everyone to just see in the open – because they wouldn’t understand – they might even be turned off from it. But those that come close – that learn to completely trust me – that are able to fully embrace all that is Me – that my heart has to offer – then they will be able to feel and see and experience that wound in my heart – that wound of love. It doesn’t hurt me. And it’s not something that I ever want to go away. It is there – as a reminder of what I did for my bride – so that she will always know just how much I love her! I really do! I love her soooo much!!
L – I know you do! But why is the wound leaking/oozing? What is that all about?
G – It’s fresh. This wound is not old and dried up and scabbed over. It’s not an old wound – it’s a fresh one. I want it to always be fresh. It will always be fresh. Yes – my love began a long time ago – but it will continue on for eternity. It is always fresh. I am at war every day fighting for my Bride. She thinks she has to fight for me – but I am fighting for her. I will win – but I am still fighting for her. I have a battle plan like no other! Some people do not understand – some people ask “well why not just go get your Bride right now? Why not end this war today and go get her? Save her now? End this war?” I know it seems like I should – but she is not ready. What bride would want to be whisked away to the altar before she has had enough time to fully get herself presentable – to do her hair, put on her dress, etc. The wedding is such a special time for the bride – and it is for me. There is a GRAND wedding feast and party that will follow as well – and I am preparing it all!
I am giving my bride time to fully get ready – to fully get prepared. But she’s dilly-dallying some. She’s getting distracted by other things – talking on the phone – chatting with friends – even discussing if the hairdo and accessories that she picked out are the right ones. Tell her to stop that. She is focusing on trivial things – that have nothing to do with me and our relationship. Tell her to think about me – to focus on me – to think about what I would like to see her coming down the aisle in. THEN she will instantly know! It won’t be a struggle. It won’t be difficult – because she knows me! She really does know me! And when she does things to please me – and not to please her friends or do what “society” thinks she should do – then it all becomes easier – and then the wedding can begin sooner. Yes – I am waiting for the wedding to start – but I know there is work to still be done. It is being done – it will be done. Keep doing what you are doing to get my bride ready Lori. This is more than just helping my kids and my bride know who they are so that they can enjoy life – it’s about knowing who they are so that they can walk confidently down the aisle towards me – KNOWING that they are pleasing to my eyes – and that I am PASSIONATELY in love with them . . . ALL of them (who they are)– accessories or not! I love them as they are! I need my kids and my bride to be who they are so that they can walk confidently down the aisle – not tripping on things along the way – but to walk confidently! If they trip, yes I would catch them – but they won’t! It will be glorious – beautiful! Just you wait and see! You will love it! It will make you cry Lori! It will make me cry! I can’t wait!
Your heavenly Daddy and future groom loves you soooo much! He really does!
Know that! With everything that is in you!
Believe it! If you don’t – take a step of faith and CHOOSE to believe it – because it’s true! You were and are worth being wounded for!
Did you hear me?
You ARE WORTH being wounded for!!
Draw close to God today . . . . reach out and touch His heart . . . pull back the shroud that has kept you from fulling seeing and experiencing His heart and love for you. “Draw near to Him and He WILL draw near to you!” (James 4:8a)
Acts 17:24-28 “The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by human hands. And he is not served by human hands, as if he needed anything. Rather, he himself gives everyone life and breath and everything else. From one man he made all the nations, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he marked out their appointed times in history and the boundaries of their lands. God did this so that they would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from any one of us. ‘For in him we live and move and have our being.’ As some of your own poets have said, ‘We are his offspring.’“
Proverbs 25:2 – “It is the glory of God to conceal a matter; to search out a matter is the glory of kings.“
Search out the matters of God’s heart. He’s waiting to show you!!
Come a little closer and deeper today!